I need my space too

 

I am a living, breathing human being. I have a mind that can think for itself, a heart that beats for itself, and a will that shows me which path I must take.

I can see what is right for me, and I know that what I want now is morally righteous- for if it wasn’t so, I wouldn’t want it.

I am strong, but not so strong that I can hold back my tears. I am weak, but not so weak that I cannot stand up against wrong. I am good, but not so good that I commit no sin. I am bad, but not so bad that I am blinded from the truth.

I am foolish, but not so foolish that I can’t differentiate between white and black, truth and falsehood, reality and deception. I am wise, but not so wise that I do not need guidance.

And yes- I need your guidance. I need you to lead the way when Night falls on my journey. I need you to direct me, and shine light on my path when the sun does not shine. I need you to pick me up when I have fallen, and help me stand when I stumble. I need you to hold my hand and lead me forward.

But this does not mean that I cannot walk. I don’t need you to hold me up when I am perfectly capable of making my own little decisions. I don’t need you to hold my hand when I need to learn to walk on my own.

I don’t need you to dig into the intricately stacked folders of thoughts in my mind. I don’t need you to delve into, and investigate my life with a skill even Sherlock Holmes would be envious of. I don’t need you to judge every word I speak with utmost scrutiny, and then weigh it against my broken past. I don’t need you to find the sacred memories of life and laughter that I hide from you.

I don’t need you to tell me to stop crying when I need to cry, nor tell me to fix myself when I’m already trying to.

I don’t need you to hurt me, and then tell me to ‘snap out of it’. I don’t need to be ridiculed, judged or made fun of, when I find myself in the deep, dark depths of insecurity.

I need your guidance, but sometimes I need my own space too.

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By-

Arya

One thought on “I need my space too

  1. Hi
    My name is Gracie and I love your blog. I have been blogging for about a year now and I still haven’t found a blog that is really my sort of thing. I think I’ve found it! Seriously, this blog is really cool.

    Recently my family and I have been away on a boat trip and I’ve been writing about that. It sort of distracted me from the real purpose of my blog, it’s called A Light In The Darkness. The link is: https://graciechicksblog.wordpress.com/

    I hope you like it

    Love Gracie

    Like

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